Well that didn’t take long did it?

The making a huge promise to myself and others and I broke it. I haven’t posted anything since March and have been just not keeping any of the promises to myself since I got back to work. Speaking of work it’s been a hell of a ride since I went back.

Long days, lonely, sleepless nights and lots of crying. Crying because I was alone, crying because I missed my son, crying because I love this job and don’t want to have nothing if I were to give it up. I finally made it to the company I’d been dying to work for and now I think about giving it up?

I have always prided myself in how hard I’ve worked, the obstacles I have barged through, and the success I’ve had in certain areas of my life. Now it seems like everything I have done has lead up to this moment of being a mother, a girlfriend, a dog mom and nothing is the same.

I long to be with them when I’m away. I am pained by exploring new countries, cities and towns when I don’t get to share it with my family. I am burdened by being a slave to my phone constantly manipulating my schedule to work for myself, the sitter, our family. I am saddened that I get to take people to their destinations at the cost of my mental health, Absense and

Author: briannachrstine

Hi! I'm Brianna a spontaneous, adventurous, extroverted-introvert from Fort Wayne, Indiana. I currently reside in Charleston, South Carolina with my boyfriend Tom, our son Bryce and our crazy pup Remy. On any given day you can usually find me jamming out to my favorite songs, dancing around being silly in the kitchen, singing to my son silly little ditty's and drinking enough tea lattes to get me through ALL of the days! Starting over every day with a fresh slate is such a blessing and I am determined to take things one day, one plane, one step at a time.

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