The promise

I’m not really sure when I became this person who didn’t follow through with what they said they were going to do but its been a problem with me for a few years now. Maybe it’s has to do with my job and never really being able to lock things in, maybe my laziness, or worse committing to things I really wanted to do but couldn’t motivate myself enough to get started and keep at it. This isn’t me or maybe it is a little bit me but I don’t want to be that person. I want to be the person that commits to what she says she’s going to do.

I have had things come and go through my mind over the years of things I REALLY wanted to do! Things like:

  • Start a blog (which I did and it lasted all of one post back in 2015)
  • Get in the studio to lay down a track I’d written
  • Go to the gym 5 days a week
  • Save money
  • Catch up with friends and family
  • Become closer with God
  • Be a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend

These are just a few examples but the list goes on and on.

I started reading Girl, wash your face by Rachel Hollis and this book has helped me along in my ever evolving journey of self growth. Honestly I haven’t ever really considered myself a “goal setter” usually I just find something I want to do and then I go after it full speed ahead! I guess the excitement of setting the goal and the feeling I get is what pumps me up, then I sit and say “nah, never mind.” As I let yet another goal, dream, wish, idea fade to black.

The second chapter of Girl, wash your face had the topic: I’ll start tomorrow. I have to be honest here with all of you and most importantly myself it raised more than a few questions. What do I want? How do I plan to get it?  How do I follow through? What are my goals? How can I stay motivated? What can I do better? What can I realistically commit to? Along with inspiring me to give some real answers to these questions she also said a few things that really sparked my interest:

“Your subconscious knows that you, yourself cannot be trusted after breaking so many plans and giving up on so many goals.”

“If you constantly make and break promises to yourself you’re not making promises at all. Your talking.”

“Our words have power, but our actions shape our lives.”

Ouch. That did not make me feel good.  I sat there and went through all of the thought-provoking things Rachel said. I am all talk lately was one of the first things that came to my mind. I’ve allowed myself to fall into a slump. A slump that was full of not right nows, maybe laters and maybe tomorrows. I can’t even tell you how many times I said I was going to do something and weeks later still have the promise I made to someone or myself looming in the back of my mind. It’s not a good feeling to disappoint others but now I think how awful it actually feels to disappoint myself.

So my dear friends from here on out I vow to keep the promises I make to myself and by keeping those promises to myself I will in turn be keeping the promises I make to others. I am sure there will be bad days but letting myself down is just not something I am willing to do anymore. I want this! I will not make excuses and no matter what my thoughts are saying, no matter if I’m tired, uninspired, or unmotivated I am going to push through! Will you join me? What will be your first promise?

Here is mine:

Restart my blog

With that being said I am beyond excited and cannot wait to share so many things with you! Big things, small things, things about my life, travel, the joys and sometimes woes of being a new mom and whatever else happens to pop into my head on random Friday nights such as these. Thanks in advance for being down for the ride. It may get bumpy at times but I promise we’ll make it through one day, one plane, one step at a time.